scream then breathe

Yesterday, I found out something.

I just found out that I will be torn away from my comfort zone, my strength and my support.

"let's inject a bit of positivity... it's not final ..YET."

Crap!

I really feel down. I know that I am on the losing end. Worst part is there's nothing that I can do to save myself. I'm really about to breakdown.

I wanna get mad. Let hell break loose but I can't. If I try to I still lose but if I keep quiet they would think it's okay.

I'm overwhelmed by my emotions, repressed anger and resentment. It's hard to contain it. I have been keeping it for a long time.

Can I not be numb? How long do I have to feel the pain until I go numb?

Everything is so dark right now.

Welcome to limbo.