Roller Coaster

Everything will fall into place..

Do I really believe that? Partly I do. Anyway, my good friend Joie got terminated already. Everyone from the team felt sad for her. Especially me, I got loves for her. She's my buddy and my confidant. We can relate with each other and she's not a part of the corny world.

I so appreciate that the guys are taking care of me, now that joie is gone. I really miss her bad. It's not the same anymore.

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Anyway, been crazy at work. Everyone seems to assume that just because we look alike we have something going on. Too bad for them I dunno what they're talking about. Sometimes I feel he wants distance but there's really no reason unless... Well, I just hope that our being close won't be affected coz I like the way we are. If there's gonna be change, it should be positive. I just hope that certain person realizes that.

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I've been wanting to get away, relax. Yeah! Chiiiiiiiiiillllllllll!!
I got 91 for QA! GOod!

75 QA! Whappak!

Well, it was a great week at work though I found out that I got 75 on my QA. I have to make a better performance with regards to cpt and QA this week coz I feel bad for team kitoy!

Let me review the week.

Last Saturday (AM), We (Richmond, Dino, Marbin, Jello, Joie, Kicks, Chin and Me) Went to E.A.T. to have breakfast. We decided to ask JayO to come so that we could fish out 2 buckets of beer. We also asked Yumi and Keith to come with us. Joie went ahead early. Some other people from different teams came to hang out and it was funny! After all the laugh, SOme people cried but it's all good. We went home at around 3.

I hope I can post some of the pictures when Jello has enough load to send it to me.

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Anyway, this week has been different We were more close after the cavite thing. I dunno why but I knew it was temporary. Hehe.. We always send this mixed signals to each other that other people think we have something going on. I know that we don't but if you ask me about him. I wouldn't know what he thinks.

It's surprising that he could act sweet infront of everyone else. They might believe our act. Hehe.. Well, He told something that made me believe him but he doesn't have the consistency which makes me think twice. Well.. I didn't say I'm transparent right?

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My two closest friends from the batch have this gap right now. One chose to just say nothing at all but the other one took it negatively. I just realized that some people are bitchy and shallow...


Anyways, my thoughts are scattered coz it's my dayoff...

5 am drama?

I decided to get up so I can sleep later. I already have work later. I enjoyed my long Day off. hehe

Yesterday, it's our 2 year anniversary. We didn't do anything special. We just spent time together. We just went to atc browse, shop and eat. I did get a much needed facial. It was relaxing...

I just realized that we really have a good thing going on. I've never met any guy who would give me the freedom that I have right now. I never knew he would be this understanding thus making me appreciate him more than before. We really have an open communication where we can talk about anything. He might not be the most romantic person on the earth or he may not be the guy I really dreamed of but you know he makes me feel like I'm the prettiest and luckiest girl in the world. Top that!

Joie, Jello, Dino, Marbin and Kicks @ eat 

Me, Joie, Jello, Dino and Marbin @ Eat 

Hmm...

"Stop trying to explain the inexplicable. Sometimes the best thing you can do is sit back and enjoy the mysterious workings of the universe -- especially when they're working in your favor, like they are right now."

I checked my friendster and that's my fortune for today. Actually, it's kinda weird coz it kinda right. Freaky? I dunno. It's funny I guess.

Been hanging out with the crazy guys of my team. It's fun and relazing at the same time. My jaw hurts because of laughing. It was one of the guys' birthday last sunday. We went to cavite to celebrate and it was fun. THough I didn't get to sleep a bit. I had a good time. They didn't have a chance to throw me in the pool. hehe..

Next saturday, it's kicks birthday! I need to find a swap for sat. Good luck to me!

Untitled

And now I concede on the night
of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy ..

Listening to Broken Sonnet of Hale right now. A lot of things has happened this week. I'm both happy and sad at the same. Again another dear friend ,left last Aug 6 to UK. I didin't have enough time to say what should have been said. She'll be staying in Uk for 6 months. We'll be having the time to catch up with each other when she comes back. Chillax in the beach! Drinking and chatting anything and everything under the sun.

The movie day that Revy and I planned was postponed because I went on endshift. I went out with my teammates. We went to Music21 and then moved on to Heckle and Jeckle. Basically, it drinking and singing sessions.

I can't wait to go to redbox with Rev. Probably on my next paycheck. Hehe..

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Anyways, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and there are somethings i still can't understand. I guess i kinda refuse to analyze. I'm turning off my emotions at this time coz it's gonna be complicated involve feelings.

Sometimes, I wanna believe the guys who tell me. but I do know him and how he is so I can honestly say I don't feel anything for him right now. Purely platonic.

But if he wanna play a game. Okay..
Let the games begin..
I haven't even started..

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Work related. I failed the QA this time for being Irate! I don't wanna be irate anymore.

Three Things

I saw this in Bianca's Blog. Just bored so I'm gonna answer it.

three names you go by:
1. keeshy
2. keesh
3. izah

three screen names you have had:
1. miyako
2. keeshy
3. aleirith

three physical things you like about yourself:
1. eyes
2. waist
3. arms

three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. legs
2. butt
3. knees

three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. spanish
3. ..nothing more!

three things that scare you:
1. being away from my loved ones
2. losing one of my senses
3. losing my sanity

three of your everyday essentials:
1. cellphone
2. mp3 player
3. facial wash

three of your favorite musical artists:
1. the beatles
2. matchbox 20
3. incubus

three of your favorite songs:
1. "learning to breathe" by switchfoot
2. "walking after you" by the foo fighters
3. "underneath the waves" by the hale

three things you want in a relationship:
1. openness
2. affection
3. full house thing

three lies and truths in no particular order:

lies:
1. santa claus is real
2. bilog ang mundo.
3. i can sing.

truth:
1. change is inevitable
2. nobody's perfect
3. GoD is good all the time.

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes!
2. nose
3. hair

three of your favorite hobbies:
1. watching movies
2. surfing the net
3. malling

three things you want to do really badly now:
1. travel
2. walk on the beach
3. eat a good meal

three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. commercial model
2. vocalist in a band
3. philosophy professor

three places you want to go on vacation:
1. japan
2. france
3. new york

three kid's names you like:
1. nicolai
2. miyako
3. leigh

three things you want to do before you die:
1. finish my to do list befire i die
2. meet my soulmate
3. do something for the world

three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. my nails are short
2. i rarely have my jeans washed.
3. they treat me as one of the guys

three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. i love the color pink.
2. i get emotional sometimes
3. i daydream a lot about my future.

three celeb crushes:
1. johnny depp
2. brandon boyd
3. chad michael murray

Me? American?

"Face it honey. You're an American"

Ken and I were eating at Brother's Burger in Alabang Last Monday. We're supposed to buy stuff but the shops were already closed. So went to eat dinner. I told him that unlike the typical Filipina girl, I don't easily fall for a guy who becomes sweet to me. Though there are few guys who can actually hold hands and hug me. Well, yeah, it feels good when some one is sweet with you. I appreciate the action and all but I don't wanna conclude that this guy likes me just because he sweet and all. Never assume I say!

There's gonna be a lot of emotional baggage and you're gonna be vunerable everytime that you fall for a guy who's gonna be sweet to you. Guys can be insensitive sometimes. They do like being sweet with someone eventhough they don't have the intention of courting her. So why can't I be that way? Right?

After explaining the stuff above. Ken just blurted out Face it honey, You're an American. He said that I'm one of the few Filipina girls that he knows think that way. We'll I guess I am if that's the case. But ever since before I've been close to guy friends and I do have a brother. I'm judt comfortable around guys I guess. Ken also pointed out that I'm like a perfect girl friend for a guy (take note of the space.) He says that I can be treated as one of the boys but has the body and charm of a girl. He believes that guys usually think that I'm better of as a friend than their girlfriend because I'm fun to be with. I dunno if that's true maybe there's half truth. We'll never knoow till I hear it from one of my guy friends.

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Society sometimes sucks they have this norms that I don't think works for me.

Revelations

This was a weird week for me. I have a hard time sleeping. I've been waking up at exactly 3pm last 2 or 3 days. I been doing a lot of thinking, contemplating and planning.

Why?

There is a game that might begin. Mix and match signals are coming from everyone I know. It very confusing though I got a piece of a puzzle just now and so far what I predicted was true but there is still something puzzling. I'll find out sooner if not later. I do believe that I'm a step ahead of them.

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Been hanging out with the wacky "pasaway" guys from my team Richmond, Marbin, Jello and Dino. They're funny and cool to go out with. Not to mention they kinda talented. I enjoy their company though they like to tease me.